i love, i hate.

i love the rhythm, the schedule that fall brings. there's structure and certainity.
i love going to bed at night after a mentally and physically exhausting day.
i love that the cross country season is well under way.
i love the fall weather that's coming soon, and all the holidays and yummy, warm junk food.

i hate sitting inside at my desk all day, memorizing the definition of moist stratified squamous epithelial tissue.
i hate not going to the beach, going to the pool, and having all this free time to read good books.

i love that soon i'll soon be going on bike rides around d.c. on clear, sunny, breezy afternoons.
i love that school is strechting my mind, getting me mentally back in shape.
i love going to my county college and getting to meet new people and listen to new professors.

i hate that soon the sky will be gray instead of blue and that all the vibrant colors of summer will fade and become drab and dull.
i hate knowing that i will soon have to be trapped inside, that it'll be too cold or slushy outside.

i love the new things in store in this next season of life, coming oh so soon!
i hate that all the old, amazing things are coming to an end- summer, childhood, sunshine, pools, beaches, vacations.

i love that fall is coming, i hate that summer is going away.

growth

The real issue is Where are we focusing our attention?

Are we working hard to perform?

Or are we working hard to rest in Christ's performance for us?

- Tullian Tchividian

"Work our your own salvation with fear and trembling [there's hard work on our part, but what are we fighting for?]... for it is God who works in you both to will and to work for his good pleasure." -Philippians 2:13

Jesus has accomplished for us all of the things that we need to do and to be.

He was perfect, he was stainless, he was kind, he was loving, he was selfless.

He trusted, he prayed, he served, he worked, he bled, he did everything...

grieved by sin

"A man who fears not God, will break all his laws with an easy conscience,
but one who is the favorite of heaven,
who has been indulged to sit at royal banquets,
who knows the eternal love of God to him,
cannot bear that there should be any evil way in him
that might grieve the Spirit and bring dishonor to the name of Christ.
A very little sin, as the world calls it, is a very great sin to a truly awakened Christian."

.chs.

The Secret of the Gospel

"The secret of the Gospel is that we do better when we realize that it's not about our doing better. Growth does not come by going out to find what we're missing, but by living in the reality of what we DO have. Because of Jesus, I have everything. Everything I long for in Christ, I already have."
~Tulian Tchividjan

for the moments i feel faint

Am I at the point of no improvement?

What of the death I still dwell in?

I try to excel, but I feel no movement.

Can I be free of this unreleasable sin?

Never underestimate my Jesus.

You're telling me that there's no hope.

I'm telling you you're wrong.

Never underestimate my Jesus

When the world around you crumbles

He will be strong, He will be strong

Where do I go from here?

Now I'm searching for the confidence I've lost so willingly

Overcoming these obstacles is overcoming my fear

I think I can't, I think I can't

But I think you can, I think you can

I think I can't, I think I can't

But I think you can, I think you can

Gather my insufficiencies and

place them in your hands, place them in your hands.

keith & kristyn getty

Speak, oh Lord, as we come to You

To receive the food of Your Holy Word

Take Your truth, plant it deep in us

Shape and fashion us in Your likeness

That the light of Christ might be seen today

In our acts of love and our deeds of faiths

Speak, oh Lord, and fulfill in us

All Your purposes for Your glory

C.H.S

"There must be no lower standard for us than the perfection of Christ. No attainment must ever satisfy us until we are conformed to his image who is the firstborn among many brethren. You will tell me I am holding up a high standard. I am; but then you have a great helper, and I will show you in a moment how you may be of good cheer concerning this business." C.H.S