until you came along || jj heller

I tried to live this life on my own
But emptiness was beating down the door
Yeah it rose up like a flood
Until my dying days were done
They are no more

Nothing makes sense without you
It's like waking up in the dark
I didn't have a song
Until you came along

Falling in love with you was easy
You were always meant to have my heart
I was broken all to pieces
You were there to be the missing part

Nothing makes sense without you
It's like waking up in the dark
I didn't have a song
Until you came...

And I never wanna go back
To the way things were beforeYou saved me and you made me yours

Now nothing makes sense without you
It's like waking up in the dark
I didn't have a song
Until you came along

Now nothing makes sense without you
It's like waking up in the dark
I didn't have a song
Until you came along

gethsemane - getty

To see the King of heaven fall
In anguish to His knees,
The Light and Hope of all the world
Now overwhelmed with grief.
What nameless horrors must He see,
To cry out in the garden:
“Oh, take this cup away from me –
Yet not my will but Yours,
Yet not my will but Yours.”

To know each friend will fall away,
And heaven’s voice be still,
For hell to have its vengeful day
Upon Golgotha’s hill.
No words describe the Savior’s plight -
To be by God forsaken
Till wrath and love are satisfied
And every sin is paid
And every sin is paid

What took Him to this wretched place,
What kept Him on this road?
His love for Adam’s cursed race,
For every broken soul.
No sin too slight to overlook,
No crime too great to carry,
All mingled in this poisoned cup –
And yet He drank it all,
The Savior drank it all,
The Savior drank it all.

peace & joy

perfect peace

is filling my mind

and drawing my heart

to praise you again.

~every.day

[sov.grace.music]

"Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known to God. And the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus."

~Phil.4:6&7

God seems to be wanting to teach me about peace.

last year through my sickness and depression,

he revealed soosoosooo much to me in this area.

i've in no ways attained perfection in this area (haaaaaaaa),

but lately i have been SO blessed by peace from God.

he has given me so much peace and joy in him,

it has been un-believably amazing!

really "surpassed my understanding..." like Philippians says.

i don't deserve his grace, but he gives it.

i have squandered it, but he gives more grace.

here are some things he's been helping me learn.

(but again, i still have sooo much more growth to attain in this area).

hopefully this will encourage you all!

- he gives peace as a gift

- joy comes through obedience (although God's gift is by NO means limited to my obedience... praise the Lord!)

- the Gospel guarantees me the ultimate peace- peace with God in his holiness

- i find peace when i cast my cares on God, because he cares for me (1Peter4:7)

i have romans 5:1-5 memorized, and part of it keeps coming to mind... (one of the reasons its SO good to hide scripture away in your heart! it pops up when you need it!)

"Therefore, since we have been justified by faith, we have peace with God through our Lord Jesus Christ. Through him we have also obtained access by faith into this grace in which we stand, and we rejoice in the hope of the glory of God."

~Rom.5:1-2

his grace through peace and joy does draw my heart to praise him.

how wonderfully he gives gifts to his undeserving children!

empty my hands - tenth avenue north

I've got voices in my head

And they are so strong
And I'm getting sick of this

Oh Lord, how long
Will I be haunted by this fear that I believe?
My hands like locks on cages
Of these dreams I can't set free

But if I let these dreams die
If I lay down all my wounded pride
If I let these dreams die
Will I find that letting go,

let's me come alive?

So empty my hands
Fill up my heart
Capture my mind with You
Oh empty my hands
Fill up my heart
Capture my mind with You
With You, with You Lord

These voices speak instead

What's right is wrong
And I'm giving into them

Please Lord, how long

Will I be held captive

By the lies that I believe?
My heart's in constant chaos

And it keeps me so deceived

But if I let these dreams die
If I could just lay down my dark desire
If I let these dreams die
Will I find you brought me back to life?

So empty my hands
Fill up my heart
Capture my mind with You
Oh Lord, empty my hands
Fill up my heart
Capture my mind with You

Cause my mind is like a building burning down
I need Your grace to keep me, keep me from the ground
And my heart is just a prisoner of war
A slave to what it wants,

And to what I'm fighting for

So won't you empty my hands
Fill up my heart
Capture my mind with You
Oh empty my hands
Fill up my heart
Capture my mind with You

With You, with You
I need You, I need you my Lord
With You, with You
I need you now Lord

when the storms swirl and rage
there are mercies anew
in sorrow and pain
you will carry me through
and at the end of my days
when your throne fills my view
i will sing of your mercies anew

his love knows best

"Fixing my heart on the blessed fact that what the Lord does is right and best, simply because he does it, I feel the anchor hold in the depths of his love - and no tempest is powerful enough to drive faith's barque from these moorings."
~Susannah Spurgeon

something to say - starfield

and faith might mean there won't be answers
and hope might mean enduring through the night
help me not forget in darkness

the things that i believed in light

praying for amy

[ http://www.caringbridge.org/visit/amycalderone/journal ]

So I will trust in You,

So I will trust in You.

When fears are great,

And comforts few,

We hope in mercies ever new.

We trust in You.

//

Into the darkness You shine

Our of the ashes we rise

There's no one like you,

None like you

Our God is greater,

Our God is stronger,

God you are higher than any other,

Our God is healer,

Awesome in power,

Our God, Our God.

[have your way - brittnicole]

Feels like I've been here forever,
Why can't you just intervene?
Do you see the tears keep falling?
And I'm falling apart at the seams.
But you never said the road would be easy,
But you said that you would never leave.
And you never promised that this life wasn't hard,
But you promised you'd take care of me.

So I'll stop searching for the answers,
I'll stop praying for an escape,
And I'll trust you,God, with where I am,
And believe that you will have your way.
Just have your way.

Remind me that you take broken things
And turn them into beautiful.

Even if my dreams have died,
And even if I don't survive,
I'll still worship you with all my life.

And I'll stop searching for the answers,
I'll stop praying for an escape,
And I'll trust you, God, with where I am,
And believe that you will have your way.
Just have your way.
Just have your way.

I know you will.
I won't forget.
You love me.
Have your way.

|| chs ||

"One moment will suffice, if Jesus speaks, to make the despairing happy, and the unbelieving full of confidence... This is the standing miracle of the church, performed by Christ today even as aforetime. Paralysed souls who could neither do nor will, have been able to do valiantly, and to will with solemn resolution. The Lord has poured power into the faint, and to them that had no might he hath increased strength. He can do it still."

Hold My Heart- [Tenth Avenue North]

One tear in the driving rain

One voice in a sea of pain

Could the maker of the stars

Hear the sound of my breaking heart?

One light, that's all I am

Right now I can barely stand

If you're everything you say you are

Won't you come close and hold my heart?

Cause I'm on my knees, begging you to turn to me

I'm on my knees, Father won't you come to me?

I Hear the Words of Love - Horatius Bonar

I hear the words of love,
I gaze upon the blood,
I see the mighty sacrifice,
And I have peace with God.

’Tis everlasting peace,
Sure as Jehovah’s Name;
’Tis stable as His steadfast throne,
For evermore the same.

The clouds may go and come,
And storms may sweep my sky;
This blood-sealed friendship changes not,
The cross is ever nigh.

I change—He changes not;
The Christ can never die;
His love, not mine, the resting-place;
His truth, not mine, the tie.

My love is oftimes low,
My joy still ebbs and flows;
But peace with Him remains the same,
No change Jehovah knows.

Your Hands - JJ Heller (Painted Red)

I have unanswered prayers
I have trouble I wish wasn't there
And I have asked a thousand ways
That you would take my pain away
That you would take my pain away

I am trying to understand
How to walk this weary land
Make straight the paths that crooked lie
Oh Lord, before these feet of mine
Oh lord, before these feet of mine

When my world is shaking
Heaven stands
When my heart is breaking
I never leave your hands

One day you will set all things right
Yeah, one day you will set all things right
I never leave your hands, your hands

Your hands that shaped the world
Are holding me, they hold me still
Your hands that shaped the world
Are holding me, they hold me still